FIVE months old!

I am dumbfounded. How is my little baby girl five months old?! It does not seem possible. But, alas, it is. And she is awesome, let me assure you.

In the past two months she has grown in so many ways!

#1 - She is 95th percentile for Length! She definitely takes after her Daddy in that, not my little 5'2" self. I bet she'll be taller than me in middle school. And Mikey will have to console her about the difficulty of finding pants long enough for her tall, skinny self. He's the pro at that.

#2 - She doubled her birth weight at 4 months! I don't even know how much she weighs now, at 5 months, but she is growing great! I love her little baby chub. She was almost exactly 50th percentile for weight at her last check-up.

#3 - She is laughing and smiling and being generally happy and wonderful. She loves when her Daddy beatboxes or throws her in the air. She always has a laugh or chuckle for her Aunt Nina and Uncle Luke. And she continues to love spending time with her grandparents!

#4 - She is rolling over! Almost exactly at 4 months old, she rolled front-to-back for the first time. Now, she is doing it every day! She's still working on getting over that arm on the back-to-front roll. And then she'll be rolling all over the place before I know it! She also loves to stand up, so who knows when she'll start sitting up straight and pulling up to stand! I'm not ready for this...

#5 - She is teething! Poor baby has had a few minor fevers and general fussiness related to her sore little gums. And she. is. drooling. But she is still so sweet and happy most of the time! Maybe the worst is yet to come, but teething has been a lot easier than I thought it might be. I just have to watch out because she is putting everything she can grab into her mouth!

We are so proud of our beautiful little girl. She is smart, sweet, strong, and so lovely. I am so blessed to be her Mommy and to raise her alongside the best husband and father I could even imagine!

Make Up Your Mind

"Most folks are as happy as they make up their minds to be." 

- Abraham Lincoln

This has long been a favorite quote of mine. One of my best friends in middle school gave me a book mark with these words on it, which I then hung on a cork board on my wall. I saw it every day until I left home for college.

These words are not meant to diminish the serious reality of depression and other mental illnesses. The friend who gave me this little, but well-loved, gift struggled with bipolar disorder. I myself battled depression for over four years. These illnesses are real, and if you need help, seek it out.

But even through those years, I went back to these words for encouragement and motivation. I think one of the greatest struggles of my adult life is realizing that I cannot do everything. I cannot be everything to everyone. I cannot accomplish every goal I ever dreamed up. I cannot be everywhere at once. I cannot. As I've grown in my adult life, I've accomplished many things, and to some people, that might give you some sense of power. But the many demands on my life that I have been able to fulfill have, for me, also highlighted the many things I could not do. I had to start making sacrifices. Saying no. Letting go.

Sometimes Often, my floors are not vacuumed, the budget is (way) behind, and the dirty laundry is overflowing its basket. Not only household chores, but also goals in other areas of life. I cannot ace every test. I cannot make everyone like me. I cannot be the best in every category. I am not always home with my baby. I do not keep up with my blog. I do not cook, or workout, or eat vegetables as much as I'd like.

In this new year, as I started thinking of resolutions to make, the list got so long that I gave up. I realized again that I cannot do it all. I have to pick...maybe I can actually do one or two of the most important things on my list. But I will never be able to do it all. Not like I wish I could.

And I feel helpless.
And small.
And defeated.

Life is beating me. (Double meaning intended)

And then I remember this quote.
And I remember that I can. always. choose.

My attitude is mine.
My thoughts are mine.

I can choose joy. I can have a positive attitude. I can hold my tongue instead of saying something mean or hurtful or negative. I can focus on all of the amazing blessings in my life...my husband, my beautiful baby, my family, my friends, my work, my home, my dogs, good food, time well spent.

I can choose how I spend the hours I do have in the day. Maybe I cannot do everything, but I can spend my time well.

I am not a victim in this world. I am not defeated. I can choose.

I make up my mind to be happy this year.
That is my resolution.

"Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things."

-Philippians 4:8